Friday

I went to a delicious Chinese restaurant last night with Paola and Michelle [my favorite people in NYC besides Michael of course] and saw a poster that I absolutely fell in love with. I should have taken a picture of it. I don't really know how to describe it to you but it made me realize I really like Asian pop graphics. I'm learning quite a bit in my "graphic design" class. It's a technical class which is great cause I don't need another class pretending to teach me art. Obviously I will not be a graphic designer once I complete the course but I will be pretty proficient in Photoshop and Illustrator. With the new skill sets I hope to acquire, I naively expect more freelance photo/design/editing jobs. Extra cash is always nice with an Americorp salary.



I was I was here again, floating in the pool reading Lolita.
P.S. My New York dream came true and I finally saw Woody Allen in person a month or two ago. I went to his new film premiere ,Whatever Works, and waited for him to show up by the red carpet. There he is!

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My slump is over

Picking up the camera again. Will try to make myself post photos at least once a week. I'm starting my graphic design class tomorrow so that should wake me up. Here's to discipline.



I sold my digital camera so all my photos will be from my new minolta srT201. I have yet to develop a roll so I will post some of my recent favorites from my old canon f1. [new jersey and new york]

what two wars am i invloved in right now?

or is it more than two wars?
back and forth i go.
between the two.
do i need to separate them?
but if i don't then am i doing them injustice?
war and injustice. duh.
secret societies in the bushes. please don't tell them i told you.
i want to fly on a plane one day. that's my dream. to go to america on a plane.
advertising agencies, galleries and grad school applications.
domain names and artist statements.
ignorance. fatal ignorance.


i think i am.
i tried infusion. caused more harm than good. in them. in me.
my wounds turned into bruises. the bruises don't hurt but i can see them. they are ugly.
will they go away by themselves? i bruise so easily. new ones pop up all the time.
from where? good question.
seems like i always have a bruise.
you kiss them so i forget. the kisses are magical. i know. i thought magic didn't exist.
what am i supposed to be doing? better yet, what do i want to do? is that even better?
do i want to be one or the other? or is the reason i can't decide is because its neither.
but then what?

whats the point? such a cliche thought process for a twenty something. my whole life is turning into a cliche. i am getting everything i want. really? since when?

intoxication

taxes are killing me.

anticipation.anxiety.attention.apparently.apprehension.addict.adieu.
acting.achievement.another.aim.absence.abyss.awaken.
admire.agony.age.accelerated.alchemy.annoy.avoid.
adventure.advice.alcohol.affection.alone.
acceptance.art.ache.afraid.

Full Moon in Cancer

A very interesting month ahead.

Religulous

seeing that tonight at the angelica. I'm excited.

so most of you don't know what the heck has been happening in my life.well if it makes you feel any better, neither do I.
sorry I haven't been keeping in touch as much as I would like to. my job, apt hunting, exploring and settling in hasn't given me much time to sleep let alone call/write.
life should "slow down" by the end of november. cross fingers.

I'm a little sick. well kind of a lot of sick but I'm not letting that get in my way.
the weather warmed up a bit. my first week was jacket weather all day everyday. now its only at night. perfect.
I love this city.so much. almost as much as I could love a person.

Fun things!:
1- subway. my favorite pastime in new york.
2- union square farmers market- samples= free lunch! cheap good food and $1 apple cider.
3-brooklyn is so far my favorite. I hope to live here.
4- there's about 20 things to do everyday. overwhelming and I love that is one of my hugest stresses in life right now.
5. my job is pretty awesome and I am beyond lucky. having a job with real responsibilities is surreal.
6. went to my first "academia" party last night with alix and her new school grad friends. exactly how I would imagine a party in a cute apt in brooklyn with intellectuals and pseudo intellectuals would be. ( did that make sense?)
7. havent run into woody allen yet, but I will.
8. surprisingly, I am not homesick. This feels very natural.
9. I have very mixed feelings about williamsburg. I've never seen so many bikes in my life.
10. alix and I have two films in the works and investing in a darkroom at her studio apt in the future. ( when we both start getting cash money)
11. I need to get used to always having cash with me. new york doesn't do debit/credit.

Apt update: as of yesterday I am no longer apt hunting. I almost had apts twice now and they both fell through and as I was about to get an apt last night my last roomie fell through. So now I will be living with my aunt in manhattan/ looking for a sublet/looking for super good deals with new people. such is life. I feel okay about it. apt hunting was so freakin stressful/time consuming and now I'm just glad its over. hopefully staying with my aunts wont make me want to kill myself:)

I need to get used to life here cause anytime I do anything I feel like I am walking into a movie. well its new york which is probably why. nothing feels real. I've only experienced this in the movies, now I'm living it.

I have nothing really deep to say at the moment. maybe another time.

Come visit! Love you all.